I gently placed my newborn son, Noah, in his crib for a nap. He looked so peaceful, serene. Not me. As I turned away, I wiped the tears from my eyes. I\u2019d been crying a lot lately. \u201cBaby blues,\u201d my mother called it. I felt guilty for feeling so depressed. My husband, Dan and I struggled for years with infertility\u2014Noah was a dream come true. So why couldn\u2019t I be happy?<\/p>\n
\u201cHoney, maybe you should take a nap too,\u201d Dan suggested when I walked out of Noah\u2019s room. A nap?! Yeah, right<\/em>, I thought. Dirty dishes were piled up in the sink, the laundry was overflowing, baby gifts and unwritten thank you notes were stacked around the house. I was experiencing insomnia and hadn\u2019t slept for days. It seemed all I accomplished was nursing and changing Noah. Even if I were able to fall asleep, I\u2019d just be woken up by Noah\u2019s cries for hunger.<\/p>\n I went to my bedroom, collapsed onto my bed and sobbed. \u201cLord!\u201d I cried. \u201cPlease show me the joy in being a new mom. I\u2019m just not getting it.\u201d<\/p>\n Immediately, an urge came over me: Read Psalm 113.<\/em> I pulled out my Bible from the nightstand and opened it up to the nine-verse Psalm. \u201cThe Lord is exalted over all the nations, his glory above the heavens\u2026\u201d It was a nice passage, but I didn\u2019t feel like it had to do with me. I was about to stop reading and bury myself in the sheets.<\/p>\n Then, my eyes fixed on the final verse: \u201cHe gives the barren woman a home, making her the joyous <\/em>mother of children.\u201d<\/p>\n Barren, I once was. But not anymore. And that was cause for joy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I gently placed my newborn son, Noah, in his crib for a nap. He looked so peaceful, serene. Not me. As I turned away, I wiped the tears from my eyes. I\u2019d been crying a lot lately. \u201cBaby blues,\u201d my mother called it. I felt guilty for feeling so depressed. My husband, Dan and I […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":30527,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"ep_exclude_from_search":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[392],"tags":[],"ppma_author":[685],"class_list":["post-23774","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-psalms"],"acf":[],"yoast_head":"\n