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The Red Lettuce Angel

What was I thinking? On top of my night rotation as a nurse, I’d volunteered to manage First Lutheran Church’s Thursday night Share a Meal program.

It was a worthy cause–we’d provide a balanced meal to more than 50 people. And I was just filling in for a friend this one week. But I was already overwhelmed by my work schedule, and didn’t completely trust myself not to mess up.

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“Don’t worry,” I’d told my friend. “You can count on me.” At least I hoped so.

In the days that followed, my calendar became a balancing act. I hadn’t factored in the amount of time spent collaborating with the other volunteers in a whirlwind of preparations.

We had to figure out the menu, find affordable ingredients for the casseroles, coordinate our shopping lists, cook, and make sure we had enough hands on deck Thursday night to serve.

It was a lot to organize, but driving over to the church Thursday afternoon, still groggy from a long shift at the hospital, I was sure I’d remembered everything on my to-do list.

All the volunteers showed up on time, and after praying together we settled into an assembly line in the basement kitchen, fixing casseroles like a well-oiled machine. Looks like we pulled it off, I thought as we loaded the last of them into the oven.

Wait a minute, I thought, just casseroles? Something’s missing. The salad!

I’d decided it would be more efficient for me to just take care of that myself, instead of involving the rest of the group. I looked at the wall clock. 4:30 p.m. Dinner was set for 6:00! Not nearly enough time to add another item to our menu. So much for a balanced meal…. It looked like my friend couldn’t count on me after all.

“Hey, Vicki!” One of the volunteers poked her head into the kitchen. “There’s a lady in the church parking lot asking to see you.”

What now? I hurried upstairs and out the door. A woman waved at me from beside her car. I jogged over.

“You’re in charge today?” she asked cheerfully. She opened her car door to reveal several loads of crisp, fresh red lettuce. “I picked it from my garden this morning,” she said. “It’s all washed and ready to go. Can you use some extra salad?”

I couldn’t believe it. “Yes, we can! Thank you!” It took a few of us to bring it all into the kitchen. I went into high gear chopping up head after head and concocting a simple oil and vinegar dressing.

Everything came together by dinnertime. Each one of our guests left with a full stomach, and several even stopped to comment on the most delicious salad they’d ever had.

The woman with the red lettuce had saved the day, but no one knew who she was, and I never came across her again. Not in town or at church. All I can figure is, God had sent an angel with just what we’d needed. I could always count on him, and that’s what counted most of all.

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The Push

Sports have been part of my life ever since I was a little girl in Gloversville, New York. I was in the pool at the Y every chance I got. I begged my parents for a bike like the big kids, but I was five and had to start with training wheels. It was a great day when Daddy took those wheels off. “Here you go,” he said. He gave me a big push on my back. His hands were gentle, but strong.

I knew he believed I could do it. There I was, holding on, holding on, wobbling on my bike—and then I was riding steady all on my own!

That push was only the beginning for me. From then on I enjoyed testing my limits. I felt it when I dove into the pool, and when I rode my new 10-speed as fast as I could go. I did my best in school too, and graduated from college in Plattsburgh. But what was my challenge now? I wondered. I hoped my guardian angel would guide me.

I picked the University of South Florida in Tampa, earned a master’s degree in library science and got a job. At 23, my life seemed balanced. I found a welcoming church, and took advantage of all Florida had to offer outdoors. I was either in the water, or running or biking up and down the shore. Testing my limits. I felt my guardian angel behind me, just like Daddy had been all those years ago, ready to catch me if I wobbled or give me a push if I needed it.

Joining a running club introduced me to people who liked what I liked. That’s where I heard about triathlons, the competition that combines swimming, biking and running in consecutive order. The most famous is the Ironman—a 2.4-mile swim, 112-mile bike ride and 26.2-mile run. “Too much for me,” I said to a friend at the club one day.

“Why don’t you try a shorter race?” she said. “Start small.” Like with those training wheels! I thought. It was just the push I needed. I entered a sprint distance event: quarter-mile swim, 10-mile bike ride and three-mile run. With my friends cheering me on, the race was a breeze!

I did lots of biking, running and swimming over the next 20 years. My runner’s club became even more important to me. When my energy flagged, the guys were there to encourage me to keep going. We clocked a lot of time—and many more miles—together. My now-old bicycle and I participated in several short triathlons.

In 2002 a Half Ironman was announced for nearby Panama City. As the name implied, it was half the distance of the famous competition. A runner handed me a flyer. “Sign up, Claire,” she said. I was 46 years old. “You can do it,” she insisted.

Maybe if I train enough. Maybe if I put my mind to it. The problem with the Half Ironman was the cut-off times. You had to be out of the water, off the bike and finished with the whole race within certain time limits. I got really serious about my training. I started biking 25 to 60 miles, three days a week. I ran several miles three times a week, and swam every couple of days. More hours of training than I’d ever put in before. I had no time for anything else besides my job. Everything went by the wayside. Even church. I relied on my runner’s club when I needed a push.

Three of us from the club drove to Panama City on the night before the race. The starting gun would go off at 7 a.m. “I don’t know what I’d do without you girls,” I said before turning in.

The next morning hundreds of athletes lined up by the seashore. Young, old, men and women from everywhere. We started in waves, five minutes apart. My friends would be nowhere in sight once we started. “See you at the finish line!” we promised each other before we separated for the swimming race. When it was my turn I jumped in the water and completed the 1.2-mile swim within the time limit. It took longer than I expected, but I sighed with relief. One part of the race is over.

My bike was waiting for me at the starting line, put there by the race crew the night before. It seemed especially heavy after my swim. It was especially heavy, compared to some of the newer models. But I was determined.

“All 56 miles and no stopping,” I told myself. I’d make those cut-off times. The course wove through the city and then out into the country. People waved us on along the way. I was heady with excitement. The race! I was in the race!

After about 15 miles we rode up on an overpass, down the other side and then onto a long, straight road. Athletes passed me, but I was making progress. I glanced back and saw lots of people still behind me. I wished my friends were with me to encourage me on, but during a race you’re on your own. Keep it up, I told myself.

I followed the markers for the course, and finally we turned and headed back. We came to the overpass we’d crossed earlier. I went over it and down the other side. But this time it was harder to pedal. What’s wrong? I had no strength. I felt sick. My hands and feet were numb. I’m going to pass out. My bike seemed to weigh a thousand pounds. I stopped pedaling and coasted.

Athletes rode by me, and before long I was totally alone. I still had 15 miles to go, and then the 13-mile run. How could I make it? I can’t finish. All my effort. All my training. I’d tested my limits, and I’d lost. How I wished someone could give me the push I needed. But my friends were out of sight. The club, my training—what else did I have to rely on? It had been too long since I’d let my faith guide me. God, I thought shyly. Guardian angel? Are you still with me?

Seconds passed. I felt better. I was stunned. Had my prayer been answered so quickly? I pedaled faster. But I still needed strength. Out of nowhere I felt hands touch my back, pushing me, urging me on. The touch was gentle but strong. Just like my dad giving me a push on my bike so many years ago. He had believed in me then. God believed in me now! I will finish this race!

For the rest of the ride I thought of nothing else but the angel’s touch. I had new energy when I started the 13-mile run. It was extremely hot, but it didn’t slow me down. The course wound through the city and then out along the shore, past sea grass and sand dunes. We reached a beachfront park. People handed us oranges and ice water. Everyone cheered. I completed the race in seven hours and 45 minutes—well under the cut-off times for each event. Friends, training, guardian angels—that’s the winning trio for this triathlete.

The Power of a Few Kind Words

Fedex was supposed to be known for its speedy delivery. I shot a look at the clock on the wall. Again. It was almost 4 p.m. What is taking so long? I thought.

“Found it!” the clerk said, holding up the mailing label he’d been digging for. Did he expect a reward?

The clerk had warned me this wasn’t going to be easy. As soon as I walked in he announced, “I’m a newbie.” He also told me his name, which I’d already forgotten in the long while I’d been standing there watching him search for the right label. And price. And the right box.

He slipped the books I was sending inside and turned the box over. The books thunked to the other end. It took everything I had not to roll my eyes. “Maybe put a piece of cardboard in there. To stabilize them.”

“Oh! Good idea,” he said. He went off to find a piece of cardboard. I tapped my foot on the floor. Drummed my fingers on the counter. Finally I just crossed my arms across my chest and leaned on the counter with a heavy sigh. If that doesn’t give him the message, nothing will, I thought.

The March sun was practically setting when I finally got to my car. My cell phone buzzed. It was my friend Faye, who ran one of my favorite local clothing shops.

“Roberta,” she said, “I was hoping you could help me out this Saturday. Ed and I have a chance to take a weekend trip. It was really last minute, so I don’t have much time to find someone to mind the store. You were the first person who came to mind.”

How could I say no? Faye had done so much for me. When I lost weight a few years back she built me a new wardrobe practically single-handedly—and helped me sell my old clothes for extra cash. “Sure, Faye,” I said. “I’d love to.”

I stopped by the store on Friday so Faye could teach me the ropes. “It’s really just learning how to work the cash register and credit card machine. And what to do if someone writes a check. Oh, and how to tally your sales. Easy-peasy,” she assured me.

It certainly sounded like it. I’d spent my nursing career managing hospital-wide programs. A cash register ought to be a piece of cake, I thought as I jotted down step-by-step notes just in case.

“Once you start using the machine, it’ll come automatically,” Faye said.

“I’ll be fine,” I told her. “You just go and have fun.”

Saturday morning I stationed myself behind the counter, adjusted some of the angel figurines that lined the narrow window. Outside, four cars pulled into the parking lot. That’s plenty of people at once, I thought. I looked down at the register. A memory from my nursing career flashed in front of me. We’d just gotten a new blood-glucose monitoring device at the hospital and I couldn’t get it to register a reading. A coworker came over to help. As he left, he shook his head, smirked, and within earshot of several patients and other coworkers, said, “A fool with a tool is still a fool.”

My cheeks had gone red. I could feel them warming up again now. What if I messed this up? I imagined all those customers standing at the counter tapping their feet, drumming on the counter, heaving heavy sighs. Just as I’d done at FedEx. Dear Lord, what am I in for?

The front door opened. As the customers milled around, I tried out the register. I took the price tag off a shirt I planned to buy myself, punched in the sale amount using the gray buttons and hit the “1/9” key. Now total the sale with the blue button, I told myself. I checked the notes. Sure enough they said, “The drawer should pop open.”

Easy-peasy, right? Nope. Nothing happened. Oh, no, I thought. I pressed one button after another. Nothing.

The door opened again and a man entered with a Starbucks cup. “What do you think, hon?” his wife called to him. She was a chic blonde modeling a long asymmetrical floral top over black leggings. “I saw this same outfit at the mall last week.”

“Of course Faye would have it too,” one of the other customers said. It seemed the whole crowd were Saturday morning regulars. I dried my clammy hands on my slacks. “Faye’s not here today,” I said. “And I can’t seem to get it together.” I fumbled for my notes. “I’ve got all the instructions scribbled down here.…” A fool with a tool is still a fool, I thought.

An awkward silence followed, broken by one of the customers. “This is Roberta, y’all,” she said, like I was a special treat. “Faye told me she’d be here today.”

The man with the coffee appeared at my side. “Just read over your notes,” he said. “And take a deep breath. There’s no rush here. It’s the twenty-first century version of an old-time general store, except instead of RC Cola, we drink chai!” He raised his cup in a salute.

“Chai’s my favorite,” I blurted out.

“Well, your wish is my command, Roberta,” he said. “I’ll be right back.”

He sauntered out the door. The ladies went on with their shopping. I bit my lip and studied my instructions again. Punch in the sale amount from the garment ticket. Hit 1/9. Then total the sale with the blue button.

Bing! The door popped open as promised. I tried it again. Bing!

The power of a few kind words, I thought. By the time my chai arrived I was ringing up sales like a pro. Faye’s customers were a dream. I helped a teenager choose something to wear to her school’s band dinner and an older lady find a stylish jacket for a friend’s memorial.

When I locked the door at four o’clock I caught sight of those angel figurines in the window. “Job well done,” I said to them. I got into my car, feeling accomplished. But I had an errand to run on the way home. I drove straight to the office supply store and headed for the FedEx counter. My newbie clerk was there again. His name tag read Brad. I wouldn’t forget that again. “You mailed a package for me the other day,” I said. “I wanted to apologize for my behavior.”

Brad grinned. “Not to worry,” he said. “I look forward to assisting you again.”

“Thank you,” I said. I noticed the manager standing nearby. “I came by today to tell you that Brad here did a really good job the other day.”

Practice—and a few kind words—would make Brad a better clerk. Hopefully it would make me a better customer too.

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The Perfect Christmas Angel

Years had passed since I’d moved from North Carolina, but not a day went by that I didn’t think of my old mountain home. Especially during the month of December. There were no white Christmases here in Florida. Nothing could duplicate the scent of a fresh-cut evergreen from just over the hill. Mom’s fruitcake. Carolers singing from house to house. The surprises under the tree. Happy memories, all of them, but sometimes they made me sad instead.

One holiday found me especially melancholy for the past. It was a few days before Christmas, and I hadn’t so much as pulled the decorations out of the attic. My sons had sent me gifts, but they’d asked me what I wanted. I already knew what was wrapped up in those boxes. I sat in my recliner and stared into space. Forgive me, Lord. I’ve always loved the magic of Christmas. But there were no surprises for me this year.

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“You have to do something, Kitty,” I finally said. This was not like me. Where was my Christmas spirit? I pulled myself out of the chair. A holiday display might help chase away the blahs. I decided to concentrate on the mantel above the fireplace. Maybe an angel or two. I certainly had plenty of those.

My angel collection filled two lighted curio cabinets in the foyer, mostly gifts over the years. Just looking at the figurines usually made me feel better.

Toward the back of one of the shelves, I spied a white bisque Madonna and Child. Where had that come from? For the life of me I couldn’t remember. It will be perfect for the mantelpiece!

Carefully I took the statue from the curio and brought it into the other room. I set it on the mantelpiece and got an idea. I surrounded the Madonna and Child with red poinsettias, adding a white candle on either side. Simple and beautiful—but something was missing. Of course, I needed an angel! Not just any angel. It had to be the right one.

Now intent on my project, I scoured the shelves of my curio cabinets. Angels, angels, angels. Too tall, too short. Not the right expression. Blue, pink, silver, gold. Nothing to match the white bisque Madonna and Child. The lights in the curios seemed to spotlight certain angels. “Pick me,” they seemed to say, but I rejected them all. Won’t anything work out for me this Christmas?

Someone knocked on the front door. I was glad for the interruption. My angel project was going nowhere.

I went to answer the door and saw the UPS man climbing into his truck. “Thank you,” I called out. He’d left me a package. As I waved to him, I looked out at the scenery. The grass was green and the roses were still blooming. Not like the wintry Christmas landscape of my childhood. The blahs threatened to overtake me once more.

I turned to go in and glanced at the return label on the package. It was from a cousin in snow-covered North Carolina! Suddenly I felt the warmth from every fireplace in my old mountain home. I could smell the evergreens. I could hear the Christmas carolers. Maybe these memories would lift me up and get me through the season.

Inside I set the package on the living room table. I was tempted to open it right then and there, but I resisted. Whatever was inside, it was the only surprise I had to look forward to on Christmas morning.

That night I couldn’t sleep. My doldrums had the best of me. I crawled out of bed and walked aimlessly through the darkened house. There’s no Christmas magic in here this year, that’s for sure. Then the new package caught my eye. Why wait?

I picked up the box and tore at the wrappings, eager as a child. As the paper fell away, I couldn’t believe my eyes. An angel! Not just any angel, but a beautiful white bisque one exactly like I was looking for. Exactly the right size. Exactly the right expression on the angel’s face. I hopped to the task, filled with Christmas spirit.

Who cared if it was the middle of the night? It was Christmas, after all! I redesigned the mantel display with the angel front and center. Magic! In the candlelight the faces of the figurines shone like heaven itself.

Thank you, Lord. Thank you, North Carolina. I settled in the recliner for the rest of the night, reveling in the wonder of Christmas—the very first one, and every one since.

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The Pantone Color Guide’s Angelic Choice for 2016

Do you know about Pantone, the color guide used in various industries, primarily printing? I’ve been wild for Pantone’s “fan decks” since discovering one on the art director’s desk when I first started working at Guideposts years ago. So many shades of color, all coded and every one expertly named. Super Lemon, Firecracker, Scuba Blue, Gatsby Glitter. Can’t you just see them?

The Pantone color of the year 2015 was Marsala, an earthy rich-red wine color that is much requested at nail salons all over the country. You saw it on everyone’s mani/pedi last summer. My sister Jaime loved it, but it seemed too dark for me.

I’m more excited about the colors Pantone announced for 2016: Rose Quartz and Serenity. For the first time ever, Pantone chose two colors, colors that “demonstrate an inherent balance between a warmer embracing rose tone and the cooler tranquil blue,” according to the executive director of Pantone Institute, “reflecting a soothing sense of order and peace.”

What could be more heavenly? It’s easy to imagine angels dressed in heavy Rose Quartz dusty pink robes, or wearing diaphanous baby blue Serenity gowns, or flying through clouds tinted by the sun to these hues. Can’t you just see it? Thank you, Pantone, for choosing angelic colors for 2016.

The Night She Saw Her Guardian Angel

They call it the most magical place on earth. What better vacation spot for us to visit than Disney World that summer of 1985? My husband and I had only been married a few months, but all signs pointed to a long and happy future for our brand-new blended family. Life felt more settled already, and I was relieved to no longer be alone.

“Let’s do Space Mountain tomorrow,” my older daughter said as she got into the sleeping couch on the opposite side of the room. Her sister was already tucked into the cot. “And Cinderella’s castle!” she added.

I reached over to turn out the light. Our days had been busy and I hoped I’d get a good night’s rest. Then I remembered my rings. It was the strangest thing. The past two nights I’d fallen asleep easily enough, but wound up wide awake a few hours later, thanks to a nightmare I couldn’t even remember.

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“Everything okay?” asked my husband.

“Just taking off my wedding rings.” I placed them on the night table. Then I turned out the light.

Usually I wore my rings to bed, but these past couple of nights when I woke up, it felt like my left hand was tingling. The sensation stopped when I took my rings off, but I worried I’d lose them fumbling around in the dark while I was half asleep. Tonight I made sure they were on the bedside table. Our vacation had been perfect so far. I certainly didn’t want to spoil it by losing my wedding rings!

I lay down and almost immediately I heard someone moving around the room. “Who’s up?” I asked in the darkness.

“Not us,” the girls said.

“Strange,” my husband muttered.

The girls whispered for a few minutes, until I could tell they’d drifted off to sleep. I lay in bed, completely relaxed, tired out from our long day of lines and rides and sun. But for some reason I didn’t close my eyes. My gaze was fixed straight ahead. I could just make out the outline of the cot and sofa bed near the far wall. My husband snored lightly beside me. There were no other sounds. I was the only one left awake and that was kind of nice.

As I stared, a shape took form at the foot of the bed. I blinked once, twice, three times. Heavenly white robes clothed a man with short, white hair and a close-cropped beard. His aura was one of complete peacefulness. What was I doing in his presence? I wondered. There was no thought that he might be an intruder. None. I wasn’t in the least bit frightened. In fact, the vision made me feel safer than I’d ever felt in my life. I almost pinched myself. My guardian angel, I thought. I’d always known that I had one, but I never expected to see him with my own eyes!

I fell asleep under the angel’s peaceful gaze. Without a single nightmare, I woke refreshed and propped my head on my pillow, my eyes on the now empty spot at the foot of the bed. I knew the vision I’d seen wasn’t a dream. The angel was as real as Cinderella’s castle, and my wedding rings on the nightstand. But why now? Why had my angel appeared to me just when life seemed to be settling down again? My guardian angel was with me here in Disney World, and he wanted me to know it. I didn’t see him again but felt his presence for the rest of our vacation.

I thought about that heavenly vision often over the next few years. If I was stuck in traffic or one of the girls was sick, I’d remember my guardian angel was right there, watching over us. If my husband and I argued, and I felt alone or misunderstood, I knew my angel was there beside me.

As time passed, my husband and I argued more and more. We separated, and after trying for two years we couldn’t make things work. Our marriage ended in divorce. Once again life was unsettled, so different from those days when we vacationed at Disney World. Except for one thing, which remained the same: I wasn’t alone. An angel was near, watching over, whether I could see him or not. He’d shown himself to me in a happier time, long before I needed him most.

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The Miraculous Story of St. Bernadette of Lourdes

One of my favorite departments in Angels on Earth magazine is called “He Makes Winds His Messengers,” titled for Psalm 104:4. In every column, the wind plays an angelic role. While we were looking for a “Winds” to run in our next issue, I remembered a miraculous story the nuns used to tell us in grade school. It involved a young girl, in the vicinity of Lourdes, France, in February 1858.

Fourteen-year-old Bernadette Soubirous went out to gather firewood with her sister and a friend. While the others kept to their task, Bernadette hung back to wade in the water near the Grotto of Massabielle, and kicked off her shoes. She bent to pull off one stocking, but was interrupted by the sound of a gust of wind. She turned her head toward the meadow, where she thought the sound had come from. But the trees were still. Not a leaf stirred. The air was quiet and calm. She went back to removing her stockings. The cool water waited!

Again a whoosh stopped her, the gust kicking up suddenly, as loud as the first. This time she looked toward the grotto. Did she see a slight sway in the branches of that honeysuckle bush? To investigate, she moved closer to the opening of the cave. It was aglow. In the heavenly light, Bernadette saw the first of her visions of the veiled Lady in white, a sash of blue, yellow roses at her bare feet, a rosary weaved through her fingers.

Bernadette’s companions didn’t see anything. Her parents, and later the police, forbade her to return to the spot. Bernadette didn’t heed their warning, and continued her visits.

At this point of the story, the nun telling it usually got a twinkle in her eye. She knew the class would never forget a 14-year-old who knew more than her parents and the other adults in charge. History was on her side. Today, Lourdes is a major pilgrimage site, and it all started with the winds.

The Madonna of Guadalupe

My birthday falls on December 12, and every year I delight anew in the date, because it also marks the feast day of the Madonna of Guadalupe, and the first visitations of Our Lady to the New World.

Although not an angel, she is called the Queen of Angels, and is revered by millions throughout Latin America and the American Southwest, where you can buy everything from candles or T-shirts to mugs and blankets with her sacred image.

Is the story true? Did it really happen?

On December 9, 1531, a young Indian Juan Diaz was walking in Tepeyac, toward Mexico City, to get help for his sick uncle. Suddenly the Madonna appeared, surrounded by spears of light. She told him to tell the Bishop she wanted him to build a cathedral at that site.

But how can a lowly Indian peasant approach a Prince of the Church, resplendent in finery, riding high above the crowds in carriages, surrounded in his palace by servants and guards? You might as tell a derelict to go knock on the door of the White House!

According to one story, Juan didn’t go. The next day Our Lady came again and once more directed him to see the Bishop. This time he spent all day in the anteroom, only to be turned away. In her last appearance, on December 12, the Madonna gave him an armful of roses to present to the Bishop. Take them, she said. The message would be heard.

This time the Bishop received him. Juan told of his vision and the Madonna’s request for a cathedral, and then he opened his cloak and let fall the roses, and there on the fragile fabric of his peasant’s cloak or tilma, was inscribed the miracle, a full-color image of the Madonna, as she had appeared to him.

Today the tilma is on display in the Basilica in Mexico City in an area darkened against destructive light. Huge crowds are swept past on a moving sidewalk; some pray and weep and others bow in reverence.

Meanwhile, several scientific studies have been done on this fabric. The results are inconclusive. In one 1979 study through infrared photography (used to detect sub-surface layers), Philip Serna Callahan saw an original image that showed no sizing or varnish or any known way to impress the image on the delicate fabric. An enlargement of the eye of the Madonna shows the kneeling Indian boy looking up at her.

A 1999 study, however, through the University of Texas at San Antonio using ultra-violet imaging, contradicts Callahan’s results, as does another in 2002, even as the Pope moved to raise Juan Diaz to sainthood.

Was the vision real? Did the Madonna appear to Juan Diaz on the outskirts of Mexico City? To me it doesn’t matter. The Queen of Angels, and especially this dark-skinned image, has already brought forth so many miracles of hope, comfort, warmth, love—the essence of spirituality—that her presence is engraved in our hearts.

The Infant of Prague

It was our third day in Prague and already we’d visited six churches. My wife, Tib, has a boundless capacity for gilded domes and rococo statuary, but as I limped painfully up the steps to Our Lady of Victory I promised myself this was my last church here in the Czech Republic.

I’d plead the inevitable stair-climbing involved; a year after knee-replacement surgery steps were still agony.

“Early baroque,” Tib read from her guidebook, “the Barefoot Carmelite order has been in residence since 1618.” Blocking the stair landing, a group of schoolgirls in green blazers were listening to a pink-cheeked nun with a marvelous Irish brogue. “Hands carved by a mysterious sculptor,” the nun was saying.

This sounded more interesting than yet another date or the weight of gold leaf on another ceiling, but the green-clad group was standing aside to let us pass.

Stepping inside we were met by an all-enveloping hush, a kind of mutually held breath, quite unlike the atmosphere in the other churches. Always there’d been the hum of voices, the clatter of footsteps, the flash of cameras. Here, in spite of the hundred or more people walking or sitting or kneeling in the sanctuary, there was a quiet that went beyond silence.

What made this place different? At first glance it was much like the others, with its elaborate high altar and painted saints. About halfway down to our right was a side altar with a curved red-marble railing at which a dozen people knelt, while 20 others waited their turn. Curious, I walked down to see what was attracting such attention.

It was the usual florid shrine, all gilt and candles and frolicking cherubs. Inside a glass-and-silver case at the center was a small wax figure in a gold-embroidered purple robe and cape, on its head a tall gem-encrusted gold crown. Amid all this finery only the chubby face and plump hands of the figure itself were visible—clearly the features of a very young child.

Only a foot and a half high, to me it looked like a doll, very much in fact like a wax-faced doll of my grandmother’s.

Its gestures, though, were anything but doll-like. The tiny right hand was raised in formal blessing; the left held a golden globe of the world topped by a cross of diamonds.

And suddenly I knew why it all seemed oddly familiar. This must be the famous Infant of Prague, whose replica even such a reluctant tourist as I had seen in many churches in many countries. Jesus, age perhaps one-and-a-half, but robed and crowned as a splendid king.

I stood in that crowd at the altar rail, puzzled by the attraction this small figure exerted even on me. We were certainly a diverse group. The street woman with her plastic bag, the soldier—German?—in uniform, the woman with the worn face, the man with the briefcase and silently moving lips. Ring binders lining the railing provided prayers in nine languages.

Different circumstances, different nations, yet each with some quality in common. Need, I thought, for money, or relationship or healing—like me with the stubborn pain in my knee.

Still, intrigued as I was, I’m not especially into dolls. With a whispered goodbye to Tib I made my way back across the Karluv Most, the 650-year-old bridge that connects the church’s neighborhood of Mala Strana to Old Town, near our hotel on the other side of the Vltava.

But I couldn’t get the little Infant out of my mind. Could those tiny hands be the ones the nun was talking about? Was there some mystery about the statue? I spent the evening studying the abundant literature Tib, as always, had brought back from the church.

No one knows when the Infant was carved. What is known is that it was brought from Spain in 1555 by a princess coming to Prague for an arranged marriage to a man she’d never met. Alone in this strange, cold country she found comfort in the little wax figure from her family chapel.

It was this princess’s daughter, Lady Polyxena of Lobkowitz, who in 1628 gave the sculpture to the Carmelites for their new church.

Just three years later Prague was invaded by Saxon troops in one of the most bloody combats of the Thirty Years War. The Carmelites were no match for sword and blunderbuss, and they fled. The occupying army seized everything of value and then destroyed what was left. For roughly six years the church was used as a warehouse.

When the monks returned they searched the despoiled sanctuary for the little statue. It had vanished, taken with the other loot, most likely, for its costly ornaments.

Some time later a monk named Cyril was sweeping the dusty floor behind the altar when he spotted something wedged into a corner. It was the little wax figure, stripped of its jewels. Father Cyril blew away a cloud of chalky grime and bit his lip—both of the little hands were missing.

Cyril pleaded with his superiors to hire a sculptor to repair the damaged statue. But money was scarce, and with both monastery and church left in ruins images were not a top priority. The maimed Infant was placed in an oratory inside the walls where only the Carmelites could enter.

Soon word got around that when the monks prayed there, focusing their attention on Jesus as a tiny child, their prayers were often answered in remarkable ways. Cyril hoped all the more that the Infant could get back its hands and be returned to the church, accessible to all.

One day Father Cyril was told there was someone wanting to speak to him in the church. There he found a lady kneeling in prayer at the altar. She rose to hand him a leather pouch. “The grace of God has sent you this gift to ease your heart’s desire,” she said. He opened it and saw a large sum of money.

When he looked up, the lady had disappeared. It was enough to hire the top sculptor in the city, “because work for God must be the finest there is.” But the new hands, when the fee was paid and the sculpture returned, were too big, glaringly out of proportion to the small figure.

Another sculptor was hired, but his work, when finished, could not be made to stay attached to the fragile wax arms. Yet a third tried, for a price, to carve new hands; these too fell off.

Then one day a young man came to the monastery. He’d heard about the Infant’s missing hands and wanted to repair them. The stranger offered no credentials, but running low on money the monks had no choice but to let this unknown sculptor try where experts had failed. They found a corner where the young man could work and left him alone.

The next morning when they went into the makeshift workroom they were astonished to find the statue upright on a pedestal, wax hands exquisitely fashioned and so perfectly joined to the statue that it was impossible to see where the new work began.

The monks scurried around looking for the young sculptor so they could pay him for his fine work. They searched the monastery, the church, the neighborhood. No one in the city knew where the sculptor came from or where he went. “He must be an angel,” the citizens whispered among themselves. The statue was moved back to the main sanctuary, and in time the monks were able to build a side altar to display it.

So this was the mysterious sculptor the nun had been talking about. But surely, I thought, it can’t be the little wax figure itself, no matter how curious its history, that for more than 350 years has brought pilgrims streaming to this place.

The next morning I crossed the Karluv Most with its street musicians, souvenir sellers and throngs of tourists to stand again in the back of the Carmelite church. As far down the aisle as I could see, the pew-backs were scarred with cigarette burns, perhaps a reminder of 44 years of Communist rule when churches were used as a place to house troops.

The sanctuary was as full, and as hushed, as before, the same variety of people clustered at the side altar. In the literature Tib brought back to the hotel the sculptor was again referred to as an angel. What was so important about this particular statue that even angels in heaven wanted it returned to public view?

Looking around that morning I thought I had a hint. Many of us in the church, perhaps all of us, had some circumstance we were powerless to change. Nothing I’d tried changed the fact of a painful and limiting knee.

A one-year-old child has no power either, yet this Infant was robed in victory! Perhaps that was its appeal. Look again, the angels want to say. God’s view of your situation is right in front of you.

Powerlessness is the perfect place to be—because it throws you totally into the arms of God. When you surrender your weakness to him, he turns it into a victory. Not always the victory you would have chosen, but always one that shows you a new dimension of his love.

The Hospital Friendship He Will Cherish Forever

Steam filled the bathroom when I stepped out of the shower. I was still a little sleepy as I ran a hand over the mirror to wipe away the fog. My reflection looked back at me: wet hair sticking up, damp cheeks. Then my gaze dropped to the marks on my chest. My scars had faded after all these years and hardly noticeable—just two lines crossing in the middle of my chest. But the memory they brought back was as clear as ever: I had only really known the little girl for a few weeks. Didn’t remember her name. But I carried her with me every day.

We met in the Children’s Hospital of Columbus. I was 11, one of the few kids in the children’s ICU. I was born with a hole in my heart, a condition called tetralogy of Fallot. So was the five-year-old girl in the bed beside me. We were both recovering from the same surgery. Being older and wiser, I thought it was my job to look out for her. “Do you want to hear a story?” I recall asking her one afternoon. I held up a few picture books from the shelf. Parents often brought books for us all to read, and the nurses were always on the lookout for more to add to the collection.

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“That one!” she said, pointing to her favorite.

“Again?” I said. “Well, okay.”

I settled next to her on her bed. She was a tiny thing with sandy hair and big brown eyes. When she stood by my bed her head barely cleared the top of the mattress. She was much too small to have undergone major heart surgery. Compared with her, I was practically a grown-up. She needed someone to watch over her when her parents weren’t around or the nurses were busy.

“It was breakfast time, and everyone was at the table,” I read. “Father was eating his egg. Mother was eating her egg. Gloria was sitting in her high chair eating her egg too.”

“And Frances was eating bread and jam!” the little girl said. She gave me that big smile that lit up her whole face. She couldn’t read yet, but she knew this story by heart.

Getting dressed in my bedroom now, I laughed remembering it. How many times had I read that story to her? It was so easy to make her happy. She seemed always to be smiling or laughing or singing songs. I wanted to protect her from anything that might hurt her. It wasn’t fair a little girl like that had to be in a hospital at all.

I frowned. Life wasn’t fair. I learned just how unfair it was only a few days after the last time I read her that story. We were in our beds, as usual. My friend was getting a visit from her parents, when something went wrong. Her monitor beeped out an alarm. Doctors and nurses ran in. Her parents were moved aside. From my own bed a few feet away, I could see it all.

The head doctor shouted orders I didn’t understand. The nurses read out vital signs. Her monitor went from an irregular beeping to a steady discordant note. An orderly wheeled in a big machine on a cart. One doctor rubbed something on the girl’s chest. Then he grabbed a set of paddles from the machine and yelled, “Clear!” Everyone stepped back. He pressed the paddles to her chest. There was a violent bang. Her small body jolted up and fell back down.

Through it all I sat on my bed, frozen in horror. Please let her be okay! I thought over and over. She’d never looked as vulnerable as she did now. And I had never felt so helpless. The doctor shocked her again. And again. Then everything stopped. She lay still on the bed. The doctors and nurses looked down, nobody meeting another’s eyes. One of them went over to the girl’s parents and spoke quietly. Her mom started crying. She shook so violently, she almost couldn’t stay on her feet. Her dad was crying too. I was still so numb with shock, it took me a moment to realize I was crying as well.

An orderly drew the curtain and wheeled my friend’s bed out of the unit. The other kids and I looked at one another. We were a fraternity of survivors in the ICU. When one of us died, we all died a bit too.

My own recovery went well. Shortly after my friend died I was moved to a private room. Then I was cleared to go home. “You’re really lucky,” a nurse told me as I left the hospital. “He sure is,” my dad said.

“I guess,” I mumbled. But why? I thought. Why did I get to go home when that little girl had died? I was far from perfect, and she hadn’t done anything wrong. How could she have? She was only five! I didn’t know how to put my questions into words, so I kept them to myself. Back home I smiled and nodded when people told me how fortunate I was. No one knew I couldn’t stop thinking about that girl and how she deserved to live more than I did.

The nightmares started a few days after I came home. Every night I relived my friend’s death. The beep of the machines. The doctor’s orders. Her mother’s tears. The way she lay still as they wheeled her away. I kept my nightmares a secret. I was too old to go running to my parents with bad dreams, too big to need watching over by someone older and wiser.

Then one night I woke up from my nightmare with a scream. My dad came running in. “What’s wrong?” he cried. “Don’t you feel well?” I shook my head. “It’s not that. It’s…it’s…” Dad waited until I was ready to talk. “What did that little girl do to make God kill her, and yet he didn’t kill me?” I asked him finally. “How come I had no problems at all and she died? What could she have done to be punished like that? Why wasn’t God watching over her?”

“David, God didn’t kill that little girl, and he didn’t punish her. That surgery is complicated. Doctors are just learning how to do it. Ten years ago there wouldn’t even have been any surgery for kids like you. You would have died back then.”

“But how come my operation was so easy and hers wasn’t?” I asked.

“Easy?” my dad said. “David, your surgery wasn’t easy at all. We thought we were going to lose you because of the amount of internal bleeding you had. We even had a priest into the hospital to give you last rites.”

“You did?” I said. “I don’t remember that.”

“You can’t remember it because you were in a coma,” Dad said. “For two weeks after your operation. Your mom and I prayed as hard as that little girl’s parents. We know it could have been you who died that day. God watches over all of us, no matter what happens.”

I thought about what Dad was saying, and it made sense. I hadn’t survived because I deserved to live more than my friend. My parents hadn’t prayed any harder than hers. Heart surgery was just complicated, and many things could go wrong. “I guess I really am lucky,” I said. I wasn’t too old to need someone to look out for me. Someone older and wiser. Just knowing I didn’t have to face the world alone made me feel better. My friends, my family, God, his angels—they were all with me, no matter what.

As dad was leaving my room, he turned to me from the doorway. “You wouldn’t remember this either,” he said, “but your friend was already in the ICU when you were in the coma. She used to come over to your bed and sing to you. She was watching over you.”

In front of my bedroom mirror, I straightened my tie. My surgery scars were hidden under my shirt now. But I knew they were there, along with the memory of that little girl. The one who’d been at my side like a tiny angel when I didn’t even know she was there. I was older now, a lot older, and hopefully somewhat wiser. Wise enough to know that I have angels watching over me, when life is fair and when it’s not.

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The Horse That Helped Her Heal

My world revolved around my husband and daughter. I could not picture my life any other way.

But John became ill and was diagnosed with a serious vascular condition. Doctors said it was only a matter of time. Elizabeth was four, too young to understand how sick her daddy was. For me one thought blocked out almost everything else: How would I go on alone?

I tried to keep my spirits up, but John’s illness changed his personality. It became increasingly difficult to be around him. I longed for a quiet escape.

Just when I felt at my lowest, a friend called with an offer. “I’ve rented a farm,” she said. “You and Elizabeth are welcome anytime.” Each visit to the farm was a reprieve, and a barn with an empty stall gave me an idea: a horse for Elizabeth and me.

My friend encouraged me to do it. I’d loved horses all my life. The thought of a ride in the woods seemed like heaven. I’d always felt closer to horses than I’d ever felt to God.

I soon found a promising ad, an Arabian named Sandy, “too quiet” for its owner. Sandy was handsome, white as a cloud and small enough to be a pony. He took one look at Elizabeth and me, then lowered his nose to the ground in a welcoming gesture.

I knew he was meant for me before we saddled him up for a ride.

From then on, whenever we could, my daughter and I would steal away to the barn. I’d pile her on Sandy’s back, and we’d set off for a walk with me strolling alongside. Hot afternoons we’d go to the stream. I’d let Sandy eat grass while Elizabeth splashed among the rocks.

I told Sandy how scared I was to lose John, something I could do with no one else.

John died in September 1990. I didn’t want Elizabeth to catch me weeping. Friends were supportive, but still I felt that no one really understood.

One day I rode off on Sandy. Out of sight in the woods I slid off his back and sat on a rock. I put my head in my hands and grieved. There seemed no end to my loneliness and tears.

Suddenly I remembered Sandy. I worried that my sobbing had upset him, and I looked up. My horse stood beside me, patient and quiet. He sighed a rush of warm air across my face, then rested his forehead against my cheek. Sandy’s touch was like an embrace, and he held me in it for a long time.

Sandy was no ordinary horse, and he hadn’t come into my life by accident. He truly was meant for me. God had led me to him. He knew I’d need assurance that I was not alone.

I’d never felt so close to a horse–or to God. I patted Sandy, mounted him, and rode out of the woods with a new awareness of how intimately God knows and understands each one of us.

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The Heaven-Sent Shoes

Our church sponsors volunteers who come to serve for a year or more, assisting the pastor any and every way they can, without holding outside jobs. In return the church families provide for their needs. One weekend I went shopping for a volunteer named José.

I picked up some work shirts and socks, but couldn’t find the new dress shoes he needed in size 12.

While I was out, I stopped by Goodwill to look for bargains for myself. Something made me head toward the men’s shoe rack. What was I doing? José of all people deserved a brand-new pair of shoes to wear to church. But somehow the impulse wouldn’t go away. Okay, God, I thought. Guide me.

Dutifully I scanned the shoe rack. Not much to choose from. But on the bottom row sat a pair of black leather shoes. I picked them up and turned them over. Not a scuff or scratch, the bottoms were clean and shiny. They looked brand-new. Size 12, no less. The answer to my prayer!

“The answer to my prayer!” José repeated when he slipped them on.

Marveling at God’s efficiency the next day at work, I told Fred and Laura, the elderly couple I cared for, about it. “Those were Fred’s shoes!” Laura said.

“I bought them a few months ago,” Fred said, “but my feet were swollen when I tried them on. They were really too big for me.”

“We couldn’t return them, so we took them to Goodwill,” Laura said. “We asked God to find them a good home.”

That made three answered prayers! Not bad for one pair of shoes.

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